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Telling Details

Writers talk about the telling details--small things that make the world real to the reader, that set the stage for the development of the plot, that help you understand the characters.

But sometimes it's the tiny details that tell you something about your life.

For a long time, I've loved jewelry. Since I was a kid. As a teenager, I collected some wonderful butter-gold amber beads, and bought beautiful dark green jade beads to go with them, and made a necklace. And then I found some chocolate-brown amber beads, and bought a strand of black jade to string them with. I have necklaces I've strung three or four times, having caught them in my hand as they broke and searched under hotel room beds or through grass to retrieve the beads.

In more recent years, however, I stopped wearing them. I was too tired to think about putting them on, most days, and many days when I did, they were too heavy. And, well, I wasn't getting much joy out of them.

But now, whether it's the new diet or the increased intake of Vitamin D after talking with my mother who had to take a huge supplement to get her levels up, or both, I'm back to enjoying my jewelry.

How could I have lost that?

And how could I have been mostly oblivious to the fact that I lost that?


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Jul. 23rd, 2010 06:23 am (UTC)

(also, Shiny!)
Jul. 24th, 2010 12:15 pm (UTC)
Your icon reminds me that fractals are "shiny" too!
Jul. 23rd, 2010 12:05 pm (UTC)
So insidious, the way these changes in our outlook can sneak up on us. Glad you've broken through.

I'm also fond of jewelry, beads and stones and sparkles of all kinds. Amber has been a favorite since I discovered it back in my late 20's--so I missed the youth-years on that. Later today, I'll have to post the photo of the glass bead/pendants I found in a baggie at a bead shop a few weeks ago. Although I've only had a chance to do the one necklace thus far, I have plans for window hanging strings of colored glass, as well as some more jewelry. I think you might find them of interest.
Jul. 24th, 2010 12:15 pm (UTC)
I really don't think it was a change in outlook. I think it was a change in energy level and brain function.

Oh, yes, beads are fun! But more fun in person. (Why don't you drive down to Milwaukee so we can play with them together? lol)
Jul. 24th, 2010 08:23 am (UTC)
Sometimes we loose those little joys. Maybe it's because something else has distracted us, maybe we've become inmmune to the joy they bring us through familiarity. But it's really nice when we find those joys again. I'm glad you've found your jewelry joy again.
Jul. 24th, 2010 12:12 pm (UTC)
What it's brought home to me is how very much health and sleep matter. At the time, I was "distracted" by less--doing less writing, less art, watching less TV even. And I was finding less joy in looking at new jewelry too, though I put that down to not having money to buy stuff. But I have less money now, and more joy.

I have the energy to not think the necklaces are burdensomely heavy. The energy to notice them, through the day as I wear them.

And again I am reminded how much depression resembles exhaustion.
Jul. 24th, 2010 10:31 pm (UTC)
I think depression is an exhaustion of the soul. It sucks at you, cripples you. It is exhausting and stops you from doing the things you used to enjoy, from being able to move and live in a meaningful way.

It's a tough disease to get through and unfortunately there aren't any vaccinations for it. You can only do your best and try to get through. Some people find help in medication but some of us don't.

Jul. 24th, 2010 11:43 pm (UTC)
That's a good description, though I don't think it is simple.

I wonder how often people assume the exhaustion arose from the soul when instead it came from lack of sleep or lack of some essential nutrient?
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